I played a gig in Glendale last night at Borders Books. This was not, however, a typical Borders gig. It was an acoustic artists contest put on by SoCal Music Live. I was the first artist to perform. I thought things went pretty well. I played for 1/2 hour and then stayed to listen to the other artists. The two bands that played at the end were very upbeat, bouncy and fun, with very simple, catchy songs. I really enjoyed them and expect they’ll do well this market.
This evening was the icing on the cake of a week I’ve spent deep in thought about the process of songwriting, where inspiration comes from and the life songs take on once they’re written.
I really pour my heart into my songs. I write what’s true for me, I write about my experiences, joys, heartaches, dreams. fears and goals. My songs are really tiny windows into my soul.
I think that once I write a song, the song itself pretty much dictates to me what the production should be. I have struggled with this as of recent as I’ve been listening to bands I love for a long time and have really wanted to produce my songs like they do or write like they do, etc. (Porcupine Tree comes to mind. They are so great.)
However, in this whole process, truth reigns. I have to let my songs be what they are and resist the urge to fit them into some kind of mold just because I think its more popular or what someone else wants to hear. Or what I want the song to be like.
For example, I’m working on a ballad that deals with loss. I would love to produce it in a really cool, spacey, rock vein with loads of complicated samples, overdubs, etc. But that would be what I want, not what the song needs and it would end up sounding fake and forced. I have to let them grow into what they’re meant to be, not what I want them to be. That’s the truth.
So that’s where I’m at. I’m letting my songs tell me what they need to sound like. I’m accepting that maybe I’m answering to a different calling and my writing and producing reflects that. That’s okay. It’s truthful. And its something I HAVE to create. So I do. It will find its place. I will do my best to let my music be true unto itself.
In the Light,
Juliet