Step 7, humility and God’s Will

Step 7

7.  Humbly asked God to remove our shortcomings.[1]

It’s not about what I want, it’s about what God wants.

Juliet’s Positive Affirmation

I read my list of defects to my sponsor.  I read it every day to God and humbly ask him to remove these shortcomings. I ask humbly because it’s up to Him, not me.  Like my affirmation above states, it’s about what he wants, it’s not about what I want.

I keep asking to have my obsessiveness removed.  I am slowly getting rid of my obsessiveness. 

I keep asking to have my perfectionism removed.  I want to learn to love myself for who I am and realize it is okay to make mistakes.  This is a very, very slow process. Some days I win, some days I lose.

I keep asking for help in getting to bed earlier. Some nights I do, most I don’t.  So He must not be ready for me to get rid of that.

I tie my self-worth to my weight and what I accomplish. My self-judgment regarding weight is getting better but the process is slow. I still tie my self-worth to what I accomplish.  That is not getting better.  So God must not be ready for me to let go of that yet.

I keep asking.  I keep turning it over to him. 

Little by little, I am recovering.

[1] Ibid.