Drawn and Quartered – How I Wrote It

My defect that I thought I shredded 

And buried in four places

Like Braveheart

Has sewn itself back together and is 

Standing over me, threatening my life

When I’m sleeping 

In my dreams I’m saying

I thought I killed you.

What else can I do but raise up 

My life up as an offering 

to God.

Write my story forward

Give it to God again.

Follow Him. 

And his sunrise

In my dreams he is saying

I’ll take care of you

If you could walk a mile in your enemies shoes, he

Wouldn’t be your enemy anymore.

Resentments

Drawn and Quartered.

And then it’s done.

Until the next time. 

My defect that I thought I shredded

And buried in four places

Like Braveheart

Has sewn itself back together and is running away 

With my life

When I’m obsessing.

In my despair I’m saying

Not again. 

If you could walk a mile in your enemies shoes

She wouldn’t. be your enemy anymore.

Even if that enemy is yourself. 

Obsession

Drawn and Quartered

And then it’s done

Until the next time. 

I only fail if I quit trying.

Expect miracles.  

Sometimes it’s 

Possible to change. 

(With God’s help)

My defect that I thought I shredded

And buried in four places

Like Braveheart

Has sewn itself back together and is

Throwing things across my car

When I’m angry.

In my rage I’m saying 

You got me again. 

If you could walk a mile in your healer’s shoes

She wouldn’t be your healer anymore.

Rage

Drawn and Quartered.

And then it’s done.

Until the next time. 

I only fail if I quit trying 

Liquid gold peace

Like a serenity concerto

Copyright 2019 Juliet A Wright. 

All rights reserved. 

This is yet another song that I wrote while spending time at my beloved Tanglewood. It is such a spiritual and creative place for me. The high quality music performed by talented artists is very inspiring. Plus the program notes gives you all of this really interesting information about what was going on with the composers when they wrote the material, how they wrote it, etc. 

Anyway, this song addresses some of my defects of character. I treat them as if they are living beings that I battle and put rest, only to find them at me once again. They seem to resurrect themselves when I least expect it and overtake me before I know what is happening. “I thought I was done with that…” I would think to myself. I had seen the movie Braveheart years ago and seem to remember that they cut him up in four pieces and buried him. I liked the image of doing that to my defects of character, such as rage, obsessiveness and resentments.  My anger seems to appear quite often in the car. Anyone who has ever lived in Los Angeles can probably understand that. I had  hopes of ridding myself of them forever in this manner.

Of course this didn’t happen. It’s too bad we can’t just change our behavior as easily as turning off a light switch, but it doesn’t happen that way, at least it doesn’t happen that way for me. I take two steps forward, one step back, try again, one step forward, two steps back, and on. But I only fail if I quit trying. As long as I am still in the ring, giving it my best shot, then that is the best I can do and my best is good enough. I keep trying. And the moments of serenity that I experience are well worth the hard work. 

This song has been recorded on my latest CD, Acoustic Songs of Recovery and Worship. 

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