Step 10, Personal Inventory and Admitting We Are Wrong
Step 10
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.[1]
I try to do a Step 10 every morning when I wake up.
“What do you want me to do today, God?”
I try to do a Step 10 every night when I’m lying in bed.
“Did I do what you wanted me to do today, God?”
These phrases are typed on signs that hang near my bed. I read them before I turn out the light. I think about the day and think of things that I did that weren’t good for me or someone else. This is usually a very long list. Then I correct the situation.
For example, sometimes I make students responsible for my feelings. This doesn’t serve them or me. They’re just kids after all. So when I realize I’ve done this, I apologize to them. I said the following to a student once.
“I was having a bad day last week and I’m afraid I expressed frustration to you when it wasn’t your problem. I’m sorry about that. I was wrong.”
Another situation in which I had to admit I was wrong was the situation with Melba Toast. I should have taken her outside by herself to talk to her, instead of talking to her in front of the whole class. I was wrong. I have not admitted this to Melba. Perhaps I should now, even if it is a year after the fact. I will turn the situation over to God.
Students really respect me more when I am willing to admit that I am
wrong. They trust me more.
It’s also wrong for me to answer the phone after 8:00 pm when I’ve vowed to set a boundary about that. The stated boundary is that the phone gets turned off at 8:00 pm. Sometimes, however, I still answer the phone after that time. And I get mad at the person who is calling after eight o’clock. Then I do Step 10 and realize that I was the one who answered the phone. It’s not the fault of the person who called, it’s my fault for answering the phone. Then I vibe them out. I’m the one who broke my own boundary, not them.
This reminds me of that saying that when I point the finger
at someone I need to remember that four fingers are pointing at me.
[1] Ibid.
Juliet Wright, Everything is My Fault, VT: Hidden Angel Publishing, 2012, p. 42.
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