All These Fears

(All These Fears, from Fearless Moral Inventory, words and music by Juliet A. Wright, copyright 2011, all rights reserved) All These Fears

When will I shed all these fears and live?

When will I stop being selfish and give?

When will I face all these fears and break free?

Whey am I so afraid to be me?

As a child I could feel creatures

Crawling up my legs

All alone in my bed at night,

I’d jump, cry and beg

I was truly afraid of monsters

I knew they were under my bed

Or hiding in my closet

Slowly invading my head

Bug-eyed it was 3:00 am

Watching ghosts float down the hall

Out to get me they truly were

The most frightening of all

Out of breath

My heart pounding

Covers up to my chin

I scream that nightmare

Silent scream

No sound, no rescue, no win

When will I shed all these fears and live?

When will I stop being selfish and give?
When will I face all these fears and break free?

Why am I so afraid to be me?

Now I cry that cupid will curse me

And I’ll live my life alone.

My glass is empty for all to see

And their hearts will turn to stone.

A fatal mistake will finish me

Like Eve‘s tragic fall

and people will finally find out

what’s really behind my wall.

Fear and pain are my offering

They attack my heart once more,

My nerves are throbbing like guitar strings

In arpeggios that soar.

If we stand in opposite corners

Hearts and minds exposed

Am I strong enough to stand it

With my battle scars exposed?

When will I shed all these fears and live?

When will I stop being selfish and give?

When will I face all these fears and break free?
Why am I so afraid to be me?

I have always lived in a sea of fear

Waiting for a shoe to drop

Waiting for my heart to stop

Pounding through my chest.

Now I’ll confront my fears ahead on

Speak my truth, sing my song

And if you chose to walk away

After you’ve heard what I have to say

At least I believed in me.

Now I will shed all these fears and live

Now I will stop being selfish and give

Now I will face all these fears and break free

Now I ma not so afraid to be me.