Expectations

(Expectations, from Fearless Moral Inventory, words and music by Juliet A. Wright, copyright 2009, all rights reserved)Expectations

Why aren’t I thin, I overeat

Why aren’t I pretty, long arms, big feet

Shame on me, admit defeat

With your fantasy, I can’t compete

It’s perfect

After all it’s all about you

You’re the one who’s good

Why can’t I be who you want me to be

And take care of you like I should

You keep shoving expectations on me

I just keep trying to please you

You keep shoving expectations on me

I’ll lose myself trying to please you.

Emotional, I cry too much

It looks so weak to show feelings and such

Hide it, stuff it, straight faced, be strong

To feel and show it is really wrong

I missed your mark

Of perfect

After all it’s all about you

You’re the one who’s right

Why can’t I be who you want me to be

And make your future bright

You keep shoving expectations on me

I just keep trying to please you

You keep shoving expectations on me

I lose myself rather than leave you.

I see disapproval in your eyes

Again I didn’t measure up

I’m never going to please you

I may as well give up.

You keep pushing and pushing for perfection

That’s how I win your affection

You keep pushing and pushing to change me

I try and fail

Good bye to my dreams.

I try my best but I can’t win

I’m weak, I lose, it is a sin

Work ‘til I drop, to win your love

Enlightened now, I look above

There’s His love, It’s perfect.

After all it’s not about you

You’re not the one who’s right

I don’t have to be who you want me to be

I’ve finally seen the Light

You keep shoving expectations on me

I won’t keep trying to please you

You keep shoving expectations on me

I’ll choose His love; it’s all I can do.