No More Plastic World

No more plastic world

No more cement walls

No more fake chest

Eyelashes or makeup

Only purity

Leaves crunching under my feet

Rocks, dirt, twigs

Spirit is here

God is here

He loves me

Sincere

No more pretending to be okay

No more lies about how I feel

Just me my kid and God

Just me my kid and God

No more plastic me

No more inner walls

Dear God I give you my life

They wanted me to be 

A perfect entity 

I tried 

To fit into their mold.

Who in the world are you

Looking back at me

I’m wearing their charms

And you’ve hid your face from me

I am lost

They’ve banished me.

Their hearts are cold

It’s plain to see

Take off their charms

Give back the key

This is not your destiny.

I didn’t even know her then

The child locked within

Buried but game

For making herself known

A volcano

Almost blown. 

Letting go 

Of all I wanted 

For God

Took my dream away.

Eliminating 

My false prophets

Now He’s in the lead to stay. 

Driving lost for hours

With the rest of the herd

Heavy eyes, fading out

Then I feel a crash

Shame and angry words

Another mess made in a flash

Guess what I’ve failed again.

I have exposed my sin.

I’m not good enough

To fit his mold 

This is the end

His heart is cold. 

But me and my kid and God

Me and my kid and God

No more plastic world 

Just dirt crunching

Under my feet

relax

Let go

Just breathe. 

(No More Plastic World, by Juliet A. Wright, 

copyright 2019, all rights reserved)