Making Contact (Spirituality)
Listen to the silence
Listen to it whisper and moan
Listen, it just might tell us
What’s going on.
~ Listen to the Silence, from Beloved,
by Juliet A. Wright, copyright, 1991, all rights reserved
Many times on my way to or from work, I see a beautiful sky, dressed in dark, medium blue with black clouds and stars sprinkled through it. This is me making contact with God. I look at this breathtaking firmament and know God is going to take care of me. God is sovereign, in control, the man at the helm. He has a plan for Juliet. All I have to do is listen, trust, obey, and let go.
A 12-Step Call
I’ve been struggling with my food addiction for the past month. Actually I’ve been dealing with it since I got out of diapers, but I have had a special concern about it lately. So I opened The 12 Step Workbook of Overeaters Anonymous and found I was on Step 11. Making contact with God is the spiritual principle for Step 11. This is God’s will. I wrote and wrote and wrote as I poured out my heart to God in the form of answers to the questions posed in the workbook. It really helped.
Today I opened my computer files to see what spiritual principle was up next for editing, as I work on the completion of this book. Making contact was next on the list. Wow! My heart stopped. This is what they call a 12-Step Call. No doubt about it, God is speaking to me, wanting me to work Step 11. That is making a spiritual connection. This seeming happenstance is in fact God knocking on my door, reminding me to keep my focus on Him and His plan.
Relationships take time, energy, and attention. If I want a good relationship with someone, I must make a commitment to spend quality time with them. In the human perspective, this means time spent just with that person, eye to eye, ear to ear, focusing only on them. It means listening, speaking, sharing, being. It does not mean being in the same room, bed, car, or office with someone and ignoring them. That is not quality time. I’ve been there and I consider it emotional abuse. Now if both parties acknowledge each other and agree on silence, that is one thing. But if two people are in the same space and not communicating and one person is not getting their needs met, that is not making contact.
I think the same ideas apply to my relationship with God. If I want to have a good relationship with God, I must make time to be with Him every day. For me, this means sitting down with him first thing in the morning, and pouring out my heart and soul on paper in my journal. It also means me pouring out my heart and soul to Him in prayer. Then it means me closing my mouth, opening my heart and mind, and listening to Him. It means focusing on Him and what He wants for my life. It means that I keep bringing myself back to Him and to this time with Him, every moment that my mind wanders. It does not mean me doing fly-by-night prayers while I’m vacuuming, cleaning the sink, answering emails (how would that even be possible?) or, heaven forbid, watching TV. Quality time. God and I need quality time together. After all, we’re talking about God here.
And that, to me, is my definition of making contact, or spirituality. It has to do with my relationship with God. It means I take time daily to sit down and talk to God, just him and me.
As noted earlier, making contact, or spirituality, is the spiritual principle behind Step 11.
Step 11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.[1]
When I need God, I just talk to Him. I just sit down in my chair at my altar and tell Him what’s on my mind. I tell Him what’s up with me. Then I wait. I wait on the Lord. I listen. I listen and wait some more. Then I open his Word and read what He has to say to me. It doesn’t have to be perfect. I just have to do it. I also talk to Him about stuff throughout my day whether I’m commuting, teaching, practicing, communicating with someone, writing, gardening, mowing the lawn, loading the car, washing the dishes, walking in the woods, taking a shower, waiting for a concert to start at Tanglewood, or lying in my bed waiting to fall asleep.
I include the 11th Step in my prayers (I call it My 11th Step Prayer), several times a day. I say:
I seek through prayer and meditation to improve my conscious contact God as I understand God, asking only for His will for me and the power to carry that out.
I also pray this prayer:
Dear God, let my thoughts be your thoughts, my words be your words, and
my actions be your actions.
I pray this prayer every day when I get to school, before I get out of the car. After teaching all day, I still have a tendency to beat myself up for any mistakes I made. I am working on changing that a little bit at a time.
This prayer reminds me of this portion of Psalm 19:
“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my Redeemer.”
~ Psalm 19:14
Making conscious contact with God makes my life better in every way. It opens the pathways, clears the throat, gets the blood moving. It makes a way open to see what God wants and clears the road to doing his will.
In terms of my over-responsibility and caretaking, I can sit, get in touch with God, and see what he wants me to do in a certain situation. He can also tell me if what I’m already doing is right or wrong.
Good decisions and results evolve from consistent contact with a Higher Power. For example, a couple of years back, one of my second-year viola students quit halfway through the year. She said it was because she had soccer practice after school and didn’t have time to practice the instrument. I, of course, blamed myself for her departure. Her mother had been dropping her off way too early for orchestra and I could not make that work with my schedule. So I had worked it out with the principal and the parent to have the student wait in the principal’s office until I arrived at school. This seemed to work out fine. I blamed myself anyway, for not being able to get to school early enough to coincide with her mother’s schedule.
I made conscious contact with God and gave the problem to Him. I asked that His will be done with Tina and orchestra class. Then I called the mom and expressed disappointment on her answering about Tina quitting, but wished them the best.
The mother actually called me back the next day and said that Tina had not wanted to play viola at all at the beginning of the year. She had asked her daughter to continue because she was good at it. The mom also said that she and Tina had agreed that she would finish out the year. She told me it wasn’t my fault. To Tina, soccer was more of a priority. I had made contact with God, gave it to Him, and His will was done. Making contact works. As a result, this change was made smoothly.
Asking for God’s will and the power to carry it out also makes my days run smoother. My early morning worship and prayer time allows me to start my day with God, which puts my focus for the day on Him. This makes me more inclined to ask Him to help me with things during the day, that His will be done. This really helps. I tend to be more relaxed, listen better, wait to respond, be less defensive and more open to the viewpoints of others. It also better enables me to admit I’m wrong, a defect of character I have been working on getting rid of for a long time now.
Another example of the positive effect making contact has had on my life occurred very recently. It is related to my brother-in-law passing away from cancer at the young age of 56. As I’ve mentioned, I have been very concerned for my sister’s well-being during this whole time. My over-responsibility and caretaking have gone through the roof at times. I’ve really struggled. This defect has been severe sometimes since Zeb’s death.
Throughout the 14 months that passed between his diagnosis and death, I have been transformed by God. I spent much of these months begging and pleading for a miracle. I was asking anyone and everyone to pray for his healing. Gradually, it became apparent that he was not going to recover. I began doing Step 11, making contact and asking that only His will be done. Zeb is now in heaven with God. I worry so much about my dear sister and the pain she is enduring in dealing with his death. But I’m learning to give that to God too. May His will be done in her life. I make contact, ask for help, and let go. It works. This is about God’s will and His will alone, not Juliet’s.
I still struggle some days, but lately the time of turmoil is shorter. For example, today my sister called me and said that she is having another memorial for him, maybe next April or May. I thought the memorial I did was enough. My therapist said we are only expected to do one. I don’t know if I could take another one. Plus, I’ll be teaching. So here is a perfect instance in which Juliet is trying to figure this out for herself.
What’s the better option? Give it to God. Ask Him what he wants me to do. Then sit, make contact, and listen for what He tells me to do with the situation. And He will tell me. Maybe not in that instant, but He’ll tell me in some way or another. I don’t have to sit here and fret and stew about how I don’t want to go through that again. I can give it to God.
My sister and I spent last Christmas together. During the planning process, very high priced hotels were suggested. I actually had the courage to say they were too expensive for me. This is a step forward. This is Juliet taking care of herself. This is the result of program. Making contact with God definitely helps me with my defect of over-responsibility. Just sit down and talk to God about it. Or go for a walk and talk to him. Or get on my knees in the middle of my office and beg. I just did that, actually. I feel better. I should go put a note in my God Box too. Good idea.
Indecisiveness creeps in here when I’m waiting to hear from God on what he wants me to do. The good news is that I don’t have to make a decision right away. If I’m asked to make a decision right away, I can say I’m not ready to do that.
My daily early morning contact with God has many parts to it. I journal, read my daily calendar bible verse, look it up in both of my bibles and underline it, and pray and do silent worship for 25 minutes. I also write some of the bible verses on index cards and work on memorizing them a little bit at a time. This happens every morning except Sunday when I go to a Quaker Meeting. I cherish the Quaker Meetings and I know God speaks to me through those people.
As noted, I try to make and/or keep contact with God all during the day. At certain points, I’ll need His support more. For instance, I might not know what to say to a student. So I may say, “God, please help me.” I’ll whisper it. Under certain circumstances, I don’t care if people hear me converse with God.
Sometimes I have so much to do here at the house with surviving, getting wood in, laundry, groceries, bills, etc., plus practicing music and the Hidden Angel business that I don’t know what to do first. So I ask God to decide for me. This works really well. God points me in a direction, I follow and do what’s in front of me and it gets done. Making Contact is vital for me and it works.
I make contact with God in all matters, especially in CoDA business situations. A Co-Dependents Anonymous group conscience is a good example of when I would ask God to watch over what’s happening in the business meeting. A group conscience is when the members of a CoDA meeting get together to discern a Higher Power’s (God’s) will for the group in a matter that affects how we run our group. This is spirituality in action.
Several years ago, I came to a crossroads in another arena of my life — my teaching career. I had a teaching position that was at risk of going part-time and the pay was low. The principal called me and said she would hire me as a para-professional (teachers assistant) for the remainder of my time, so I could relax. I would have a job. I went upstairs to my altar and gave thanks to God. I would be okay.
Then I found out about another teaching position; the job was local and had more days of just teaching music. I interviewed, liked the principal, and took the job. I worked out the schedule between the two principals so that both schools could be serviced. I thanked God. I felt God was telling me to do these two jobs.
Then a few days before school started, I got a call back about a position I had applied for in another district. I was working summer school at the time. I prayed about what to do. I asked God. I was going from the original message I felt He had given me when he told me to stay at my original school. I kept praying about this new job offer and development. I didn’t get any new messages and was getting really frustrated. Finally, I thought I got a message that said, “Go for it. Take care of yourself.” I wasn’t clear where this message was coming from. Was it coming from me and what I wanted or from God? I really began to feel like I was driving myself crazy, like a dog chasing her tail in circles. I kept praying and meditating for a long time that morning about it.
Later that morning, I went to work. I figured I might get a phone call from this new school district. I continued my prayers to God. I said, “God, please, if you want me to have this job, put the words in my mouth.” I asked questions about the job too. I received the responses I wanted for the questions I asked and, when they offered it to me, I took the job. I have that job to this day and am accepting this as God’s will for my life and me carrying that out.
My therapist told me once that, basically, if we don’t know what to do, we give it all to God and then do what’s in front of us. Then we accept what we have done as God’s will for us for that day. This keeps the dog from chasing her tail. I like this practice and I use it. That way, I am still making contact with God and doing my best to carry out His wishes.
I must keep contact with God at all times. I need to let God live through me and live my life for me. I have to ask Him what He wants, pray for the willingness and strength to do what He wants, and do it. This means doing what God wants, not what I want. What he wants makes everything better in the end. It is the only way that works.
Juliet’s Daily Contact Prayers:
Dear God, let my thoughts be your thoughts, my words be your words, and
my actions be your actions.
Dear God, let there be more of you and less of me.
Listen, trust and obey.
Is what I’m praying for in line with the will of God?
Whatever you want, God.
It’s not about what I want, it’s about what you want, God.
How do I know it is God’s voice I’m hearing and not my own desires or Satan’s? I remember talking to a program friend about this. Sometimes it can get confusing in regards to whose voice I’m hearing. But if I listen closely to what is being said and what purpose it serves, than clarity comes in. Satan usually wants to drive me farther from God so he will put doubt in my mind and heart. He will also point my mind and will towards things and activities that will make me more comfortable and feed my ego. Being human, I want both of those things, so it would be easy to listen. God usually points me in the direction of what is right, just, based on truth, in line with helping others, in line with helping me achieve the highest version of myself. If the message fits that, I know that it is God.
I made contact with God about my barn, asking that His will be done. I worried that rebuilding it violated the Quaker testimony of simplicity, because it was not something I needed to survive, or so I thought. Well, apparently I was wrong and it was God’s will that it be rebuilt because the process went quite smoothly and now it’s done! Now my barn is an art studio that doubles as a guest room for visitors like my sister. The bottom part is a shed for storage. God is great.
How do I know when I have followed God’s will and not my own? Well, usually it feels right and runs smoothly when I follow God’s will. When I follow my own desires — especially if they are physical, selfish, or self-serving (it’s all about me, making myself look good) — it usually feels awful in the process and turns out badly.
For example, I do think He wants me to do this book and my audiobook. He seems to want me to teach orchestra lessons publicly and privately. He seems to want me to go to Quaker Meeting.
What do I do when I don’t want to do what the voice says? How do I get my own will out of the way? I pray for the willingness to be willing to do His will. I ask God to help me get my own will out of the way. Then I act as if, and do what is in front of me to do. I say The Serenity Prayer and get moving. I usually want my own way. I’m human. But my own way usually gets me in trouble. Remembering this helps me do His will because I know He knows what’s best for me.
God loves Julie. God will help her listen and obey better. I do okay. I need to give up control. I need to listen and obey when he says enough is enough. I need to stop when He says it’s time to stop.
Juliet’s Mantras that Help:
- You are doing God’s work.
- Hold the outcome in the Light of God.
- Before you go into a room, hold it in the Light of God.
- Use your inner wisdom
- Do your best, do your Make a Plan Process (covered in the first book), let go and let God.
- Be still and know that I am God. ~Psalm 46:10.
I have positive affirmations that help me with making contact:
- Today I am Gods brand new creation.
- Everything God intends to accomplish in and through me shall be done.
- I listen to the Christ within that loves, guides, and strengthens me.
- All good in me comes from God.
- Let God’s will be done through me.
- Let life be willed through me.
Additional practices I engage in when working the principle of making contact:
- Submission: I get down on my knees in the morning, give my life and my day to God, and ask that His will be done. I say The Lord’s Prayer, The Serenity Prayer and My 11th Step Prayer.
- Journaling: I get everything I’m feeling and thinking out of me and on paper.
- Scripture: Reading the bible every morning helps me to discern God’s will for me and helps to give me the strength to do His will.
- Worship: I pray to God. I get it out of me and into His healing arms. I tell him I’m sorry, what I want, what I don’t want, what I’m grateful for, and ask for help for others. I listen to God through meditation while repeating “Yeshua” or “Here I am, Lord.” These words help me focus.
- Exercise: working out really brings me closer to God. I have had a few spiritual awakenings on the treadmill.
- Quaker Meeting: God speaks to me at Quaker Meeting. Sometimes He speaks to me directly at Meeting or through the messages spoken by others at our weekly worship. (I cover the Quaker silent method of worship in the Recovery in Religious Organizations Chapter of this book).
- Constant God Connection: I pray as much as I can throughout the day, listen for His guidance and try to do His will as I think He has told me. Sometimes he speaks to me through other people at my CoDA meetings, through a radio sermon, in a book, or through people I see during my day.
- Slogans: I repeat my favorite slogans, such as “No my will but thine be done,” “let go and let God,” “I can’t, God can, I think I’ll let Him,” and “You are exactly where you are supposed to be at this moment.” Repeating the slogans really helps me relax.
- Evening Prayers: At night before I go to sleep, I get on my knees and pray that He’ll watch over me.
- Evening Surrender: As I’m falling asleep, I repeat, “I surrender Lord, I surrender.”
- Rest: I get more sleep so I can hear what God is saying to me.
I give God my life.
I have a very happy life, and I have gratitude and happiness more than ever before. This is thanks to the daily contact I have with God and my efforts to do His will and His will alone. He has given me a gift in my ability to contact Him any time, anywhere. Thank you, God. God speaks to me and I am grateful.
[1] Ibid., p. iv.